Things I've Accomplished in 2011

-Find a job.
-Start school. (& don't give up this time around.)
-Make at least one new friend.
-Attend a Circa Survive concert.
-Attend Joey and Quay's graduation.
-Lose 25 pounds.
-Save up $$$ towards a Nikon D3100.
-Tell a certain person how I really feel.
-Attend at least one party.
-Get really really wasted at least once.
-Buy a cute bikini.
-Ride at least one roller coaster.
-Do karaoke.
-Grow my hair out.
-Excercise more.
-Road trip.
-Skinny dip.
-Dye my hair back blonde.
-Purchase a really cool bike.
-Remember how to ride that bike.
-Get another tattoo.
-Pierce my tongue again.
-Keep in touch with old friends.
-Learn piano. Or guitar. Or both.
-Wake up early.
-Go to sleep at a decent hour.
-Visit my granny. :)
-Travel to another state other than Florida or Georgia.
-Try a new food.
-Have really amazing sex.
-Find new places to go in Jacksonville.
-Go on a ghost tour.
-Call my brother more.
-Fly in a plane.
-Have the BEST 21st birthday, ever.
-Pay off some debt.
-Trust more easily.


So, 2011 is almost over and I accomplished a pretty decent amount of things on my list. Hoping 2012 will be a better year than 2011.

Major Update

So, I can't believe it's already October. The last time I posted was back in April, right before I started my job at Starbucks. These last 6 months have been crazy and not a l the best. Everything at work has been great. I really love my job and I'm hopefully going to be up for a promotion at the first of the year. I'm very excited about it. As for my personal life, not so great. I won't really go into details about that right now, but I plan on updating this blog constantly from now on.

Update!

-Find a job.
-Start school. (& don't give up this time around.)
-Make at least one new friend.
-Attend a Circa Survive concert.
-Attend Joey and Quay's graduation.
-Lose 25 pounds.
-Save up $$$ towards a Nikon D3100.
-Tell a certain person how I really feel.
-Attend at least one party.
-Get really really wasted at least once.
-Buy a cute bikini.
-Ride at least one roller coaster.
-Do karaoke.
-Grow my hair out.
-Excercise more.
-Road trip.
-Skinny dip.
-Dye my hair back blonde.
-Purchase a really cool bike.
-Remember how to ride that bike.
-Get another tattoo.
-Pierce my tongue again.
-Keep in touch with old friends.
-Learn piano. Or guitar. Or both.
-Wake up early.
-Go to sleep at a decent hour.
-Visit my granny. :)
-Travel to another state other than Florida or Georgia.
-Try a new food.
-Have really amazing sex.
-Find new places to go in Jacksonville.
-Go on a ghost tour.
-Call my brother more.
-Fly in a plane.
-Have the BEST 21st birthday, ever.
-Pay off some debt.
-Trust more easily.

His Late Night Call

It's three a.m.
I'm waking up
to the sound of his ringtone
ringing on my phone.
He called because he's drunk
and he needs a ride home.
But we both know
that's not all he wants.

It's that late night call again.
The one I just can't help but pick up.
I know what I'm getting myself into,
but I just can't seem to stop.
He's got the kinda hold on me
that's just too hard to give up.

His girlfriend isn't home.
He says "Trust me, she'll never know."
Oh, she'll never know.
That I'm the one...
Oh, that I'm the one lying
in their sheets with him each night.
Oh, she'll never know.
Because by morning,
I'm already long gone.

It's that late night call again.
The one I just can't help but pick up.
I know what I'm getting myself into,
but I just can't seem to stop.
He's got the kinda hold on me
that's just too hard to give up.

He says he's gonna leave her.
Everyday he tells me he's gonna leave her.
Only we both know he won't.
He's in love with her,
but I'm in love with him.
He'll never leave her.
I'll never leave him.
Oh, he'll never leave her,
and I'll never leave him.

It's that late night call again.
The one I just can't help but pick up.
I know what I'm getting myself into,
but I just can't seem to stop.
He's got the kinda hold on me
that's just too hard to give up.

It's his late night call again.
(And I'll never give him up.)
It's his late night call again
(And I'll never hang up.)
It's his late night call again.
(And he'll never give her up.)

Something New

I decided to start a livejournal. It's going to be completely different from this. This blog is going to just consist of my poems and various rants on different subjects. My livejournal is going to be more like a real journal. It's just going to be my unedited thoughts and random things going on in my life. I'm going to definitely try and keep up with both sites. More than likely the livejournal will be more of a daily thing than this will be. I'd love for you guys to read and keep up with both. :)

www.lisamarie2708.livejournal.com

Check it out!

-Lisa Marie<3

Come Back For Me

You left me here.
You left me here,
all alone,
in this dark and empty room.
I'm calling out for you,
longing for you to come back for me.

I thought it would be worth it.
(Oh - how I wish it would've been worth it.)
I thought you were worth taking a chance on.
I regret it.
I regret it because
now you're gone.
(Now you're gone.)
Long gone.

I just don't understand this.
I can't understand this.
Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to leave me?
You said I was you're everything.
You said I was "The one."
Now, I'm all alone.
All alone
in this terrifying world.
Without you.
Come back for me.

You left me here.

You left me here,
wanting to hear you say my name,
needing to hear you say "I love you,"
longing to have your arms wrapped around me,
and desperately waiting,
waiting for you.
Waiting for you to come back for me.

I can't seem to find...

I just can't seem to find
anyone that can even begin
to measure up to you.
I don't want to look anymore.
I'm done searching.
I just want YOU,
and only YOU.
Come back for me.

(You said)
You said you had to do this.
(You said)
You said you had to leave -
to find yourself.
(You said)
You said you needed to,
before we could ever be together.

I just don't understand this.
I can't understand this.
Why you would just leave me here.
Why you won't come back for me.

I found myself.
I found myself,
in you.
Without you,
I'm lost with no direction.
Come back.
Come back for me.
Come back for me, please.
Please.
Come back for me.

You left me here.
Why did you leave me here?
Come back for me.
Come back...

...before it's too late.

So, I finally wrote something.

I think before, the reason I wasn't able to write anything worth posting and sharing was because I was trying too hard. I was thinking about it too much. I wasn't just letting my emotions come out on their own. Of course you can't rush these things. I don't even know why I was trying to. I guess I just wanted to have something up here so bad, and I was feeling so down and pissed off, I couldn't seem to get past it. Anyways, I was listening to a bunch of William Fitzsimmons songs and my thoughts just came pouring out. 

By the way,  if you've never heard of William Fitzsimmons, you really need to check him out. He's amazing. 

So, I don't know if I'm considering what I wrote a poem or a song. I really think it could be a song. So that's what I'm going to call it. I'll post it in a separate blog post. I hope you like it. :)

-Lisa Marie<3