Update

Okay, so it's been a while since I've posted anything so I decided I would give a little update. (Even though I know hardly anyone ever reads this damn thing, so it's like talking to a brick wall or an empty room.) I've been really busy, so I really haven't had any time to post anything. Although, I have written a few things. I just don't think they're all that good. I can't seem to write anything...happy. Everything I write is so cynical and dark. I'm kind of tired of writing that kind of stuff. I need some new inspiration! Which, I think sometime soon I might actually get that. :) Not going to jump the gun though. Anyway, like I was saying, busy. I've been busy. There's so much stuff going on in my life. (When is there not?) Most of it, I don't want to deal with. Of course, I can't really say here what all is going on. Mainly family stuff, as usual. I've been busting my ass trying to find a job, but I still haven't gotten anything. It's so frustrating, but I pray that I obtain one soon. I've got to save some money. My mom's birthday was this past Friday. She turned 37, but if you ask her, she'll say she turned 29. She's so crazy. We didn't really do much to celebrate it. Got some dinner and that's about it. It was fun though. I always love spending time with my mom. Then Saturday and Sunday, I felt like complete shit. I don't know what came over me, but I got really sick, and laid in bed all weekend, which sucked. Now it's Monday night (Tuesday morning) and I'm sitting here typing this to you. You're welcome. Damn, I need to get more people reading this. I kinda feel like a loser.


Also, I've really been thinking about getting my photography out there. Like starting my own business. A lot of people tell me I have a real talent for it. I feel as if I do too. I really enjoy it. I've just got to get some more experience so that people (customers) will have something to go off of as to whether or not they want me to photograph them. I seriously want to do it though. I need some better equipment. For starters, a new camera. Anyway, I've just been thinking hard about it lately, and it's something that I've seriously got my mind set on. 


On another note,  I've been having ridiculously horrible dreams, again. I don't know why it's so hard for me to have a good dream every once in a while! I mean the shit gets old. I've been having the same dream almost every night the past several days. I've been dreaming that my friend (best friend? I don't know what we are anymore) dies, and in every dream he dies a different way. Horrible, right? On top of that, I never get to tell him goodbye or that I love him. Even worse. I don't understand my subconscious mind. It's like it's only there to torture me. I actually woke myself up crying. How ridiculous is that?  Anyway, enough about these dreams. They can suck it.


Question, is it pathetic if I cried during an episode of Wizards of Waverly Place? Be honest. If it is, then I guess I'm a pathetic little loser, because I definitely cried when I was watching it. It was so good though. This goes to show you how boring my life is. Seriously though, that show is awesome. If you don't watch it, you should. Just saying.


I know all I pretty much do in these little "updates" is ramble on about nothing, but what the hell? I don't have anything better to do, and if you're reading this, apparently you don't either. I will be posting something soon. I'm going to try and post something different, something happy, but if I can't write anything "happy" I'll just post something I've already written. I've just got to tweek one of those up a little bit. Well, I don't really have much else to say, so I guess I'm done with this. Feel free to comment this or anything I've written. :)


-Lisa Marie<3