I was going through some things tonight and I came across a song I wrote to God a long time ago. I read it and I honestly can't believe, being the person that I am today, I would have even written it. I've gotten so far away from God, when I used to be so close. I remember going to church and being able to actually feel something. Today, that's completely different. I feel as if I've lost faith, and I'm not saying that I think God isn't real and that I don't believe in him, because I do. I just need a reason to have faith in him again. Like I used to. I've been through so much hurt and so much pain in my life, and I've always prayed and prayed and prayed and nothing ever got better. Now I'm praying to Him to give me a reason. I'm waiting for something to happen. I'm waiting to be happy.


Here's the song:



Help me to see the things I cannot see.
Help me to feel the things I cannot feel.
Help me to become the person you want me to be.
Give me the strength to get through this day,
and help me to know that with you I'll be okay.


Dear Lord, 
I give you my all.
I give you my everything.
Take this heart and make it new.
Heal the hurt and all the pain.
because I want to live for you
and only for you.


Give me the strength.
Give me the will.
Help me find myself because,
I need to be free from all this pain.
From all this hurt.
And I know you'll never leave me.
And I know you'll always love me.


Dear Lord, 
I give you my all.
I give you my everything.
Take this heart and make it new.
Heal the hurt and all the pain.
Because I want to live for you.
And only for you.


Take my heart and fill it with your love.
I want to feel you wrap your arms around my heart.
I just want to feel your presence again.
I'll worship you with all that I am.
With all that I have.
Please, God, just make my life whole again.


Dear Lord, 
I give you my all.
I give you my everything.
Take this heart and make it new.
Heal the hurt and all the pain.
Because I want to live for you, 
and I need to live for you,
and only for you.

-Lisa Marie<3